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The World I'm In

By: aPpLeZauc3 @ 17:27 (EDT) / 651 / Comment ( 4 )
I've been playing poker since high school. That's around 2002 and right before Moneymaker won his championship. I learned the game inside a school bus heading home. I had a friend who always sat next to me and always told me how great the game of poker was. He would show me the hand rankings and how the flop, turn, and river works. I didn't pay much attention even though he would tell me that his bankroll online was around 50K at the age of 17. I started to pay attention when some kids would play poker for some lunch money...and that's when I asked for my friends help and within weeks, my mom was a bit worried on why I stopped asking for lunch money lol. I was a grinder here and there but that stopped suddenly when I graduated and started having jobs at local restuarants and offices. I hated the fact how much hours I would do just to get a paycheck of 600 in two weeks. Having a girlfriend was kinda tough because half of that would be towards her and taking her out. Another quater for my phone bill and car insurance. That's when I started to hate the fact that I want to be my own boss...I can't fucking deal having someone tell me what to do and come back home smelling like grease and receiving another paycheck for 600. Finding a local home gameis kinda tough. I would find some $20 buy in cash games at .25/.50 or some $100 cash game at .50/1 and I always end up a winner. Take this as an example, out of 20 sessions, I would come out 15 as a winner.

I have steadily maintained a very small bankroll through two jobs and school. I have been tempted a hundred times to go to hardrock or magic city to play some cash games but I fear not going because it would leave a huge dent in me if I end up losing. I am confident about my game and I know im great at it because there has been times where I wouldnt be invited to a cash game because other people want to win lol....but confidence is not much a power when you shove aces and some idiot donk calls due to his stack and hits his two pair....shit like that, you know?

I'm almost done with school (5 months) and I'm a bit excited because I know the paycheck would be a lot bigger once i find a job after graduation, so I know my bankroll would steadily increase instead of saving $150 every two is tough for myself as I am currently reaching my sixth year with my gf and spending some money is just something I have to do to make her happy lol...and getting laid of course ;P haha

Anyways, I love the game of poker and I rarely have a losing session in the cash games I participate but when paying 4 bills, gas, food, rent, and a gf to pay just makes me depressed that I cannot play the amount of poker I want to. I study and read poker EVERY FREAKING DAY. I have bought every BLUFF and WPT mag without a subscription lol (huge oops but w.e), watch hours of poker videos, post on other poker forums, and watch a huge amount of my fav players online.

If there is anyone else out there who is grinding and surviving life, then just be recognized and let me know whats up with you ":wink:

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