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For All the Joy and all the pain thank you poker :)

By: divabrae @ 22:31 (EST) / 308 / Comment ( 7 )

Some days if your like me you play really well and get sucked out on time and time again and you brush it off for the days when you feel like you just can not miss .Some times you wonder where you might have gone wrong you go back to the drawing board looking in depth at your game how you played the hands in a session and how you could have changed the outcome .

Too be honest i have been really pleased with how i have been playing but i have to admit it is hard when you have played a long session and played really well to be down buy ins that is the nature of the beast i guess . Anyways Had a look and even thou i get  down about it i know there was nothing i could have done you know when people are hitting the impossible when they should  never have even been  in the hand in the first place .

I guess for me it has been hard to make the change from sit and goes to cash i have had very mixed results and my bankroll continues to take a hit . Thou I am really pleased with my improvement and i guess some of the hands i have lost too over the last few months  i have too take on the chin if i do not want it too effect all the hard work i have done . 

On the plus side i went back to sit and goes and hit four final tables out of eight no win this time not been playing them much but just towards end of year i had 2 wins back to back which was awesome .

I am at a crossroads now do i continue with cash or go back back to sit and goes . I think after a bad beat i might go on tilt for a few hands which isnt good so maybe cash is not for me got to learn to brush it off more . I have really enjoyed it and so have the sharks . Just another point on my return to sit and goes i have noticed that seem to be a lot looser than i remember . it is even more crazy now playing them and seems a little more difficult to cash strangely enough!!  But i guess they suit my style of play because it is so true how different cash , sit and goes and tournaments are to play . I really enjoy playing all of the above been playing some omaha really enjoyed that had some success . 

I remember falling in love with poker coming up two four years ago some days i do find my love shrinking on those sessions when there is nothing you can do but i know and understand that is poker cruel sometimes and beautiful the next  . Some times i can not believe how far i have come with my game but with the casino bringing more and more players to poker stars just maybe the cash pool just has too many fish  seems silly me saying it lol i think you just need a more vaired mix of players . Never ever thought it was going to be easy to be succesful at poker but i had hoped that i would be a winning player by now maybe one day but then i have always been a half glass full kinda of guy or just stupid something like that .

Poker is something that saved me it gave me my focus back and enjoyment in life back something i could do and not think about other things going on in my head a distraction  it gives me an escape , LIfe has always been tough for me but i have never shyed away . The only thing i ever was good at was being a soldier and that messed me up the only thing that makes sense to me now is poker so i guess my love hate relationship will continue for a bit longer . One great thing about poker is age does not matter so i have many more years to get better at it so thank you poker for all the pain you give me but also for all the joy .Good luck to all you guy and gals that love this game and hate it lol because some days you really need it the luck that is  

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